Honestly, I have no clue what I’m doing with my life. I don’t do any of the assignments for class, I end up turning them in late, or I turn them in incomplete. My grades are beginning to reflect my porr attitude to school, now. Everybody around me is caring less since we’re almost out of this place. I imagine the future of my whereabouts will be a wonderful experience. Although there is much I need to learn in order to be successful with which ever path I choose to make. My motivation to perform at my best in school is beginning to fade. Distractions, distractions, distractions. Athletics always seems to keep my interest. Writing/typing what is on my mind at the time keeps my interest. Trying to change something with music keeps my interest. Living my life keeps my interest.
I cannot tell you what I want to be, but I can tell you a few things that I do not want to be. I do not want to be a student who simply goes through the motions of school and retains little to no information, but I do not want to be a nerd, either. I do not want to be a son who takes life for granted. I am tired of doing things I’m told and getting no acknowledgement in return for when I ask the simple question,”Why?” I do know that I want to be a good person, but that differs upon everyone since each holds his own opinion of what “good” is. I do not want to be mediocre, but I do not have the motivation to try to exceed my goals. I do not want to be insecure, confidence is one of the keys everybody needs to progress through life. I am tired of all the whining and complaining that goes on, but I fall a victim to my own words. So am I a hypocrite, or simply one who does not have the strength to prevail? I do not know, but I do not want to be either. Walk the walk you talk. Sounds so simple, yet the action of actually doing so becomes too difficult in the world we live in today. Nothing is impossible. All we can do is try to be better than we were yesterday.